Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in fucalories' LiveJournal:

Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
1:16 am	hey there- stil sticking to catabolic or "negative calorie" foods. thereis so much variety, and apparently some foods are more effective (high grade) than others (low grade) I included a link: http://www.drkaslow.com/html/catabolic_foods.html also taking lipo 6 and tonalin, i believe it is called. i have noticed a slight difference but i'm not up to the full dosage yet. lipo 6 has synephrine, which is supposedly the cousin of ephedrine as far as burning fat goes but is widely available everywhere - i bought it at vitamin shoppe. been exercising around 800 cals a day, i'm saving up for my friend's birthday party at which there will be much alcohol. I ordered the bracelet from that lady catrina in wisconsin - i'm psyched for it. i tried to buy this red bracelet at the mall but the ink from it started coming off on my arm, and that is never fun. <3 ciao (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 17th, 2006
12:08 pm	motivation whenever i start feeling a litte dangerous i think of beautiful, expensive, skinny jeans. i also say over and over, "i'm just a naturally skinny person. just a skinny kid. i have no interest in food." i also think of toned stomachs and really beautiful lingerie. (Comment on this)
12:01 pm	yesterday i'm feeling kind of weak but i'm sure i'll snap out of it. yesterday was a triumphant day. i realized- people who eat are no different than animals, fucking farm animals. "feed" is lined up in rows, and they eat this slop over and over, and even consider this to be entertainment. i realized yesterday how boring eating is. i mean, you sit at a table an you're supposed to eat this crap that a. lasts five seconds, and b. just makes you fat, depressed and miserable? no thank you. i feel like saying to them, how about we get up off our asses and do something fun, like dancing? also, when at a table one isn't truly involved in conversation, which I think is a shame. they are primarily involved in the slop. it is so important to connect with people and let them know you're really listening to them. i have much better days when i hardly eat. i feel alive. -today i burned 500 calories. i plan to use it on a can of tuna with mustard,2 cups of coffee with soymilk, and two beers. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
1:52 pm	poetry nine like a true artist i sculpt, i paint, i tirelessly labor over my creation. like a true artist i am never finished i just keep perfecting in love but never quite satisfied i want to show it to the world i am Van Gogh i am Starry Night I am... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:31 pm	poetry seven in a cocoon of my own making i struggle in time fortified by nature's strength i'll break free spread my wings and fly never to return to this place of stagnation. eight food depresses me conditioning you see those on the street gluttons all obsessed with consumption devoid of meaning they wander wondering what if but die meaningless deaths of the obese. a painting one sitting on the couch watching two dimensional projections inhaling filth personified from a bag. each bite you take is a handful of dirt on your grave. for you are alive but dead alive but buried buried in your own filth that hangs off your bones surrounds them choking your soul you sink deeper and deeper into obscurity. save yourself everyone deserves a second chance dont believe what they tell you what they tell you. purify walk like a human should and ask yourself whether you resemble a human or a pig? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
6:42 pm	poems one I fear for my health. never believed in moderation- all or nothing at least i'm not a heroin addict at least i dont smoke cigarettes but i do hate myself. a little self destruction goes a long way. get to 100 then we'll talk. two you know it's funny i would have given my right arm for you but you weren't such a friend i hate to care i didn't need a birthday gift i didn't need a call but i loved that you were there for me until you let me fall. you always did scare easily although you seemed so strong i guess you're just a colder heart goodbye, my friend, so long. three looking at you reminds me of the past i was perfect long ago so perfect even you would have loved me even you. when i see him i miss you with his countless flaws he is one gigantic flaw but your only flaw was that you couldn't love me. four dont tell me what i cant do this is my body, my life your wife runs eight miles sounds familiar do danger for you like there is danger for me danger for me. gain and i'm history so much for being friendly put down the cookie it's a hop skip jump to obesity i miss being pretty oh the power oh the sweet revenge oh the sweetness rum and det coke please i need to forget what i have become. five i want to walk among the others in perfect harmony i miss them i hate these dark walls dark walls surrounding me the real me. no one can see no one cares to touch with such a barrier i need to break free i need my moment in the sun... six i try to face my fears, but courage has only brought me misery you dont die from rest you die from gluttony i'm already dead starving gave me life